The Wheels on the Bus

So, I'm siting on the bus last night, and I really think I might be sick. 

I don't often get nausea with my headaches, but yesterday was one of those unusual days. I thought it was because I was hungry, when I got it on the way home from London. But I'd eaten, and now it's that dinner I'm threatening to revisit.

And I'm wondering what the hell I'm doing. I'm still going out to the cinema even though I've felt rough all day. When I got home I went straight upstairs and did some mindfulness. And in those moments of quiet my head threatened to get worse. The throbbing quickened, sharpened. And then it calmed. 
But then as I did some washing up, it tightened. I almost burst into tears at sheer frustration. Then I took a few deep breaths, hardened my resolve, and carried on.

And now I was sitting on the bus, feeling sick and getting awful sharp pulses in my neck - my neck! - that were only adding to the deep aching that had spent most of the day in the right side of my head, but now for some reason was residing in the left temple. 
A drink or two, and then two hours in a dark room with bright lights on a big screen and loud noises all around. Just what the doctor didn't order.

But you know what?
My head got bearable halfway through my first rum and coke. And whilst I was aware of the pain, I was too distracted to pay attention to it. 
It was bearable throughout the movie. 
And outside, it only reared ugly, aching, nauseous head again when I had to run like a superhero for the bus. 

So there I was - again - sitting on a bus, with a pounding head and that feeling in my mouth that you get just before you vomit.
But I didn't. I got home. I took my pills. I went to bed.

And today is another day. Today is another day of fighting my head. Fighting for a pain free life. 
Fighting for myself.