It's a wonder I've kept hold of my sanity, though when I think about it nearly 9 years of pain must have had some effect on my mental abilities too, not just my mental health.
I got through my A-Levels with this brand new, confusing headache. I studied for my degree with an ever-increasing feeling of despair, and disbelief, and graduated with a 1st.
I've been working for 4 years, and still I can get through a normal working day, sometimes a lengthier than normal day, with this head.
But sometimes, I stare at the screen, and the light burns my eyes. Sometimes the noises in the office, of phones and talking, is hard to bare.
Sometimes I wonder how the hell I manage to do anything when it feels like someone is drilling from the inside of my head outwards.
Sometimes it's all I can manage not to cry and admit defeat and just drop my head on my desk and do nothing.
And that's usually when I swallow the pills.
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